The Sad Reality of Happiness

It almost sounds like an awful title, how can happiness be sad? Seriously?! Alas, it can be people. Your true deep happiness within your own self can mean sadness in other ways. Such as the idea of being divorced, two parents who were great friends but just couldn’t get the relationship to work, see each other extremely happy as an individual after the divorce but are sad because their children have to grow up in that “two homes” environment that they had so worked to avoid.

That is the sad reality of this world, so many people made the decision to marry and so many get into a divorced situation without working their butts off at trying to keep the marriage working. While my ex and I worked to keep our marriage going, I am realistic and know that some do not. The end result for a divorce situation is that their children are going to somehow benefit from the divorce.

You see, the two parents need to be at their happy place in life and within their own self in order to share that true inner (and outer) happiness with their children. This sometimes means raising your children apart. I have seen my children blossom having their mom and dad divorce, it works for them and it works for us, but that does not mean there are days where I do miss having that “family” type environment for my children.

A single parent environment does suck. Parenting wasn’t meant to be done alone, but I am doing it the best I know how because this is my true happy and I think I see that refection of my inner happiness in each of my children every passing day.  Sure I am going to be a work in progress for a long time, I still have things I struggle with and things that I need to work on to better myself, I think everyone has those things, but overall I am extremely happy with my own self and where I am at in life today, which means I smile more, laugh more and love more.

Children thrive on laughter, love and smiles – all they need is attention. This true inner happiness will be something that someone else, maybe a man? Will enjoy one day about me, but for now I am just taking it one day at a time and hoping that everyone who is in my life at this moment enjoys the person I am today, tomorrow and years ahead. I know I am and I will.

 The Sad Reality of Happiness

I can Be Strong, but Let me Cry First

Just last night I was saying how I feel like I need to just cry and let it all out. So much is going on that makes me sad, this sadness is deep right to the center of my soul. I have hope and I have faith, but that doesn’t make the sadness subside, it’s there deep within.

I am a strong person. I can handle a lot of situations that get tossed in my direction, but sometimes even the strongest of people hit their limit. That is me. I am at my limit and feel like if only I had a local girlfriend to come hug me hard, just hold me and let me cry on their shoulders I would feel relieved.

There’s nothing to talk about, nothing to write – I’ve gotten it all out of my head, but it’s the heart that is deeply saddened and for this, the only solution is a long, deep cry. So I will pull out the tissues and bury myself in a blanket to just let the tears flow so I can move forward and be stronger to be the mom and person I need to be for my family.

 I can Be Strong, but Let me Cry First