Random Poem – Long to Have you Love Me

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I long to have you hug me, let me cry
Be the one who doesn’t judge nor pry
I just want you to love me for me
Even if we sometimes disagree.

I want you to experience inner happy
To see the love I see without being too sappy
I long to feel as if you love me
without treating me unfairly.

I love you dearly, so much so
That I have moved on and let go
If people are meant to have a bond
Life will allow that to become.

Written by:
Brandy Tanner
April 17, 2013

For some reason sad poetry comes to mind when I am at my most challenging moments, for this instance I am having hormonal issues so that explains the sadness and longing in a female way. This poem is not written to anyone nor for anyone in particular – it’s simply words on paper (or computer screen anyways).

 

Sometimes We Hold Others at Higher Expectations

I am guilty of holding my own self up to this high expectation, I have always felt I am strong and can make it through anything – alone or not alone. That is who I am. As a close loved one told me earlier today, “Everyone can only be so strong. You’re stronger than most.”  The thing about me is that because I hold myself to such high standards, I tend to hold others to those standards and that really is not fair.

Everyone has a busy life. Everyone has their own inside demons to work out. Everyone has their own things that they have going on that maybe they are not as outspoken about like I am. That is one thing a lot of my current friends know of me and say often; “I have frustrations too but you are just more outspoken about them and passionate about getting them out verbally while I sort of hold onto it internally until I am ready to say something that makes sense”. That I am guilty of, when something is bothering me I ramble it out in writing or words just so that I can be free of it. Doing that means it doesn’t always come out correctly.

Sad thing for me right now is that there has been someone lost, while it may have been expected, I really needed a couple people who I hold very close to my heart there for me. Lately, as in the past few months, those who I held so close to me, they were my rock, my love, the only people I knew I could go to for anything, have disappeared. Or so I feel as if they have disappeared. I start to wonder what I did wrong, why don’t they talk to me anymore.

Then I realized, just today, that it doesn’t matter that they are not here for me in the way they used to be. That they do not seem to care to have my children and me in their life in a way I have tried to keep them. Sometimes, whether you are talking about family or friends, you just have to let go because people change, lives change and sometimes people just suck.

While I am not saying those I miss having around me “suck”, in all reality they are amazing people who really can sometimes get me to think in a different light, I am just sad that in their actions (or lack there of) that they seem to not want to be here for me when I really needed them. I would be there for them in a heart beat if I knew they needed someone, guess sometimes, it takes that down and out moment to realize just who is that important in your life. I have to remember that I can only be so strong just like others.

I have to remember that while I can love a lot of family and friends in my world, it does not mean we will always talk or always be there when the other needs us, but after going through what I went through last night into today, my eyes were opened as to who really is genuinely caring and not about me. It hurts. I’m sad about it, but at the same time, I shall move on and still continue to love those who were a part of my life and are not there anymore. I will not hold bitterness, rage and anger because that will only consume me to become who I used to be.

Getting this off the chest helped. Collecting my thoughts and writing down my rambles has really helped me to try to put others back down to normal expectations and realize that while others may not talk to me in that moment, they do love me and would be there in a heart beat should that situation call for it.

It doesn’t really help that this Winter has played a huge toll on my mood and well being. It doesn’t help that I am having my own health problems that no one knows about except those who are actually 100% part of my world. It doesn’t help that I am just ready for sunshine… but thankfully writing helps, seeing my kids smiley faces helps and having the love I have within my direct household helps. I am thankful for what I do have and have survived through worse.

Happy Thanksgiving – Today I am Thankful for…

Simply having family and little ones. I am thankful I was able to have children and even though the three I have can sometimes be quite challenging; I am thankful to have been blessed with three amazing children whom I will love forever, unconditionally. That is what parents do…

Image courtesy of David Castillo Dominici / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

We love our children unconditionally, forever and always. Happy Thanksgiving my friends, be thankful, be grateful and enjoy every moment that you have on this Earth today because you never know what life may toss at you tomorrow!

Life will Move on, Love Yourself & Others Will Too

I wish I may, I wish I might

Have this dream I dream tonight

Full of laughter, Full of love

With a white flying dove

Life is simple, so they say

Smiles and laughter fill each day

Til a storm cloud looms above

And there goes that white dove

Falling down, down, down

No one is around.

Life is what you make it

Life will move on, and so will you

Love yourself and others will too!

Do Those who Do what they love for Work Tend to be Happier?

I have noticed I tend to be happier because I do what I love each day for work and life, do you think that is the case for most people in this world?

If someone does what it is they enjoy and love in life, do they tend to be happier and funner to be around?

Recite This Smile Today Poem Daily

I wrote this the other day and feel it could probably help more people so I am sharing it. The deal is, if you are having troubles lately in life that you repeat this as often as possible to remind yourself to 1) smile and 2) love yourself always.

Smile Today

A poem by Brandy Tanner

I will smile through the rain.

I will smile through the pain.

Loving myself is what makes me grow.

And I will smile just to let you know.