Maybe it’s because I haven’t found the right man who mixes well with my work at home routine and crazy schedule of non-sleeping boys but over all I have found that after a period of time I get annoyed with any person I am around a lot. The person usually ends up being a male because in all honesty I don’t hang with too many females and usually it’s a boyfriend I would spend time with when not with kids. Although I am attempting to change that so I can have more friendships and less relationship issues, as I can’t do the relationship thing with my life at the moment.

I often am wondering why a person can make me smile and laugh one moment and then the next be on my nerves so bad that I want to wring their neck?! Is it a hormonal imbalance thing or maybe it’s because I have a hectic schedule and fitting another person into that almost stresses me out. I am quite content just taking care of the kids and working in between the chaos I call my life.

Although having friends is important to me, I don’t think I can focus on it as much as I want to right now at this time in my life.

I am curious how many of you have ever pretended not to see a person when out in public. You know the scenario; walking through a local store when you happen to look up and spot someone that you would really rather not say hi to and you look down and head in a completely different direction to avoid bumping into them.

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I have been guilty of both doing this and having it done to me. I actually have to laugh and I do {right out loud} when people do it to me because in all honestly most that do it to me are people I would so rather not have to pretend to be nice to. All the power to them for thinking they got away with avoiding someone who really could care less if they said hi or not.

I really can’t stand playing nice to people I don’t like. There are few people I don’t really like and those fall into the category of ; too into themselves, judgmental and sometimes even arrogant personalities.  I tend to flock to people who can benefit from my happiness and I can benefit from theirs. Don’t get me wrong, I am not always happy and I do realize humans are not always 100% happy, but if someone is going to simply say hi to me just to get the latest dish on my personal life or whatever well then in all honesty they can go fly a kite, or rather continue to pretend they didn’t see me at the store.

I will survive, because those are people who the world need not let into their lives. I thrive for positive, thoughtful and caring individuals who really enjoy company of happy, low drama people.

It happens to most females that haven’t undergone a hysterectomy and still have a menstrual cycle, or what I prefer to call my non-friend of the month. That time of the month when you just can’t stand anything, cry at a whim and are completely irritable. The week before symptoms are usually what make me realize I am about to have a visitor from a non-friend.

You know your non-friend of the month is coming when ….

• you find yourself crying over ketchup everywhere.
• you find yourself detesting things you normally love.
• you find yourself not wanting to be near your loved ones.
• you no longer have patience to deal with the energy of your children.
• you want to sleep all day and night.
• you want to eat salty things or chocolate.
• you are so irritable the littlest things set you on fire.

If you experience any or all of these symptoms it may be that time of the month. Just sayin’

I woke up this morning to find yet again my trust has been broken, not that I am all that surprised but seriously …. really? The one person who broke my trust is a person I thought I could seriously trust. This is a person who always seemed to be that one person I could speak to and they would treat me with respect.

This person was the kind of person who I could talk to and they could politely disagree with me. We could share opinions, they could tell me I was acting stupid and I would take their opinion into consideration because they said it in the most respectful way. Today I have lost that person, it has been brought to my attention that this person is not someone who can be trusted any longer and that my friends makes today a slightly sad day.

I haven’t lost my man, I haven’t lost my children and so that makes this a great day! My man hasn’t betrayed my trust, my children haven’t done much more than make me smile today and for that I must say thanks for. My heart was only slightly broken today. Today was the day I found out those few people I thought I could trust can no longer be trusted. So sad, but hey, at least I found out now rather than later.

Once again I must remind myself to not be so open with my personal business that I usually share pretty openly with family and friends. Once again I have to train myself to zip my lips and only share that type of personal information with those I know I can love and trust. Loving and trusting a person doesn’t mean always agreeing, it simply means when something is stated to you that you will not and I repeat WILL NOT speak that to another person without telling me that you told another person or asking my permission prior to doing so.

Honesty is something I can respect, being deceitful and non-trusting is something I have no respect for.

Note – don’t mind how this article flows, wrote it in the moment of aggravation.

Okay friends this may be TMI {too much information} for you but I seriously must talk about that time of the month, ladies you know what I am talking about. The bloating, the cramping, the mood changes, I swear this time of the month I am on an emotional roller coaster ride. Normally my head is on pretty straight, I can focus my thoughts on the positive and be productive. Today I woke up feeling exhausted, sad and lost. These feelings are all too common about a week before I start my period.

It’s just like when I was pregnant, three darn times, I get moody and don’t know what I want. When I am experiencing that time of the month I always want what I normally do not want, I feel like I miss people I normally don’t miss, I get lonely and start having self pity. It drives me crazy because I am self sufficient, not so lonely and never, ever feel sorry for myself.

I am a confident woman, independent and usually I can be found smiling so what is it about this time of the month that makes me so crazy? I don’t know but I am hoping some Midol will help me, it did last month. At least I now when I am going to have my period … I start wanting to sulk and cry over sad country songs and yes I sit here working listening to sad country songs. Country music is wonderful but it certainly brings back a lot of memories I should not think about when I am on this emotional roller coaster time of the month.

Thank heavens I don’t plan on having any more children because experiencing this hormonal rush for 2 weeks out of the month tests me and I can’t imagine going through this again for 9 months! So today if I don’t respond to your texts, messages or don’t seem the happy person I normally am, it’s because that time of the month is coming and one week before as well as the week during that time of the month I am not Miss Smiley Brandy, I am Miss Confused & Emotional Brandy. Bear with me friends … this too shall pass!

Maybe you should get this book on Amazon for your daughters to forewarn them ….