It’s funny the other day I was thinking about how I don’t really fit in with any particular crowd. As I watch my oldest start having cliques in school where the girls are friends with this group of girls and yet not friends with the other group of girls I wonder, where does anyone fit in really?

I think that every person has something unique about them that sets them apart from a clique and I would like to think that even within each clique the individual person gets bored at times with whatever the other girls may be doing.

For me, I don’t fit in with the upper class generation who spends money insanely and has a lot of materialistic items. I don’t fit in with those who have no money and live on the side of the road without a roof over their heads. I don’t fit in with the middle class who bitch about money and yet have enough to get bye. I am simply me and I like being part of every group, I enjoy chatting with all walks of life and really do enjoy a diversified group to call friends. I doubt I would ever been truly happy hanging with one particular “clique” ever.

I am a bit of a child adult, I always say I will forever be a toys r us kid and it’s so true. I am that goofy immature girl who loves to act a fool with or without alcohol. I am that mature business woman who can sell you anything to make a commission when need be. I am that girl who is the mom figure and can totally show my children great morals and good character. I am a bit of everything and therefore I fit in with ME and that is all that matters.

We have a local channel where you can watch the happenings around town but the channel usually has horrible audio quality so I just don’t ever watch it. One morning I was feeling lazy and while lounging in bed decided to flick channels when I happened upon a November school board meeting. Now there is a lot going on in the high school and with the school administrative unit that has me wanting to keep up with the latest and since the audio for this meeting was normal I thought I would watch it.

All I can say after watching this local school board meeting is that the tension within the room of students, school board members, administrators and teachers was so intense that I could feel it through the television. It appears that there is a lot going on behind the scenes of the schools, mainly the high school, that the parents are not aware of. Most recently the principal from the high school was arrested based on reports that he put his hands on a student, he is facing simple assault charges against a student.

My children are not in the high school yet but I will be honest that if the school doesn’t smarten up by then and get some organization going on then I would have no issues pulling my children from the public school environment and placing them in an online high school environment or even home schooling because I won’t put up with my children feeling intimidated at their own school by administrators.

This is really sad to see that the one place children should feel safe and secure is falling apart. As a teen I knew that high school was my safe heaven, I was an above average student and being at school was way better most times than being at home. I had trust in the administrators and had no issues speaking to them if something was going on. I can only hope that by the time my children get into high school that the school has it’s act together because this is so sad to see our future generation falling behind because adults can’t seem to get some organization going on in the upper level of administration!

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Life is about to get crazy! Not only do I have one in school but come Fall I will have two in school as well as two in different age groups for soccer, which means four days a week of sports. Also my middle child wants to play t-ball if he is old enough so I am going to see about signing him up for that like now. I am about to be busy and had hoped that this wouldn’t happen until my kids were closer to their teen years.

My children are 8, 4 and 2 … why so busy already? I love being a mom but sometimes I wonder how do I ever keep up with the busy days of a mom, night working hours from home and extra curricular activities.

My children, mainly the two boys dislike riding in the car, rather they despise being placed in their seats in the car to go anywhere. It’s a battle to go to the store, to go to the bank …. it is a pain to get out of the house with them period! I am in a way looking forward to having my youngest all to myself next school session but at the same time not looking forward to the four days a week in the car and five days a week of pick up and drop offs for school.

The one good thing about the kids growing older is that maybe someday they will start having sleep overs and kids parties – I am so ready for that fun!

Sometimes you have to make a decision that you never thought you would be able to nor have to make. I was recently faced with one of those type of decisions and all of a sudden the answer to finally just walk away made total sense. Let that person know that I can no longer condone their negative actions, I can no longer listen to them sit up on their high horse acting as if they do no wrong. So begins a new chapter in my life, the chapter of getting off my butt and sticking up for what I believe in no matter who it upsets! This my friends is the start of a newer ME, a person who still is positive, still loves to help others but finally has said enough of the BS from everyone else who only wants to make the people around them miserable. It’s funny because I truly believe this person doesn’t even see how miserable they really are … maybe counseling will do them some good, it did me some good for sure!

I am excited, scared, sad, angry and a bit nervous because I haven’t ever really made a decision quite like this one. This decision involves a family member and I am a hug family person. I have never believed in not talking to your family for long periods of times because you never know if that will be the last time you two spoke. I don’t like leaving loved ones angry and I never let my hubs or children leave the house without a hug and I love you.  That is me, who I am and who I have been as long as I can remember. I have had friends who haven’t talked to one or both of their parents in years and overall they were okay with their decision, they usually agreed that it totally sucks that things had to be this way, but reality is life isn’t full of easy decisions.

A person must take time to realize that you didn’t choose who your family is, you can only choose your friends. When you are a child, under the adult age of 18, you are sort of stuck living this life with the family you have and there is not much you can do about it. Sure you can rebel, you can talk back, you can act out, but all this does is anger your family and bring on negative attention, believe me been there done that! I was a good student in school but a rebellious child at home for sure! As soon as I became old enough to venture out on my own, well about age 17 I had my own apartment & that was my senior year in high school, I was happy to be free of the reigns of my house, I was happy to be able to make my own decisions, to smile for no reason, to laugh, to blast music. I enjoyed all the simple things in life back then but of course I wasn’t a parent.

Now that I am a mother of three children I have to make decisions based on whats best for them and it’s not best that my children see me run down by a family member to the point of crying unstoppable. I can’t cry any longer, and I can’t allow this person to continue to mess with  my head as they did for so many years growing up. I am me, I am happy, I am confident I do the best I can and I have a huge enough support system online and in real life that losing one person may break my heart deeply, but it won’t break ME.

I joined this website called MyYearbook, great site, it’s fun and I get to do what I do best; flirt and be social. Yes I am guilty of being a bit flirtatious at times, not so much when I am in a relationship but I’m single so it’s safe to say I am very flirty. I mean nothing by my flirts, it’s all in good fun and most every one who knows me well knows that I am not one to go for a one night stand or do much more than flirt. Now back in the day, well that’s a completely different story, I am now in love with myself and know that a one night stand is going to do nothing but destroy my self esteem that I have worked way too hard to build up.

So this website, MyYearbook.com is pretty neat and fun, however, it is the most drama filled site I have ever seen. I can’t believe how catty some of the females are on there and as much as I would love to say that the men on there are great, in all honesty some of them are only on there looking for a one night stand. Most online men are there for flirting and one night stands, now men don’t take offense there are many online men out there who are caring and sweet individuals but the majority of them have ruined it for those who are caring and sweet.

I have watched on this site as girls fight over who their “number one” man is and it’s forbidden to send stickers to them flirting because after all they are number one on their list which means they are in a relationship, even if they are seriously nothing more than just “top friends” on a website. I have debated on removing my account from this website because the drama is intense, but there are some people on there I have formed friendships with who I would not be able to communicate with otherwise, because I am not giving them my phone number or email address to gain contact to my personal life. Some of them do read this blog, some do read my other blog but hey what I put out on my websites are strictly what I want everyone to know, I don’t tell all the “behind the scenes” information.

Anyways, I have to giggle as I watch grown woman fight over a man and act as if they are in high school again. I feel like my every move on that website is watched because of some of the woman on there, but I figure if they want to watch me I should feel special and loved. After all it simply means they are jealous, right!?