I love you all, I love being home with my kids but I also love writing and I love socializing and so it is my pleasure to say I am heading to Type-A Parent Conference on Wednesday to meet up and be roomies with my real life best friend, @mommadjane.
We had been “virtual” friends for about two years when we met for the first time and now it has been two years since we have been in real life together. I was lucky in that I won a contest for free tickets to the conference and free 3 nights at the hotel for me and a friend, the friend ended up being none other than the rockin’ MommaDjane who I love dearly!
We really seem like sisters, we have the normal ups and downs, lack of talking daily and such that you would have with sisters, but maybe sisters is a bit extreme. I don’t care what you call it, her and I have been through a lot and she is most likely the only person online that I have met who knows the MOST about me on a personal level and she best be keeping her mouth shut! haha!
So off I go to fly for the first time, have a conference for the first time and be away from my sons for four days for the FIRST time… my daughter and I have no separation issues but my sons and I …. oh man I think I am as bad as them!
Do you realize I love BEE’s? Yes, well … okay not in person but I do love anything to do with home decor or keepsakes that has to do with Bee’s. This is because my maiden name initials are Bee, how cool is that? I mean seriously I want to go back to that name so I can have those initials instead of Bet. I guess Bet is okay, I mean you can bet on me and win every time because I totally rock but bee is so much better… bzzzzz.
I use to have a variety of items that were in my home that said Bee Happy, that is totally my style. At least if you read HappilyBlended.com you will see the connection between BEE Happy and me. I love to bee happy!
So what is it that you love so much or collect? Also, do your initials spell something cool?
I am going to counseling with my ex husband, yes, it is true. This is something we had wanted to do before to try to open up communication. We both have our faults and things that we do that whether we are in a relationship together or a different relationship can cause issues.
Of course I tend to withdraw from some people and he tends to not be open with his thoughts and feelings as much as I am. I will tell almost anyone what I am thinking and how it is when I think it. I am outspoken and sometimes it’s not a great thing to be but I enjoy being that way. No one has to ever guess what I am thinking, ever!
One thing I learned about myself is that I am full of anger in a moment about something but then when I stand up and try to confront the person I no longer have that intense feeling of anger or frustration. I have been told by the counselor that apparently I have somewhere along the lines in my life learned that it wasn’t okay to stand up like that for my feelings.
Of course I could give you a million ideas on why I feel I am this way but I do recall my father telling someone once that if I hit them it’s for the last six things that bothered me and to not let them take it personal. Whereas my sister will punch you if she is mad in that moment. I guess I have learned to suppress the negative feelings rather than letting them out and slide away so that they are not accumulated inside of me and come out when they shouldn’t.
So … how do you handle frustration and anger? Are you non-confrontational like me or do you deal with it in that moment allowing your mind and body to be free and clear of the frustration?