Oh my goodness, the other night this song just hopped in my head Brad Paisley – Alcohol – love it! It is so true ….
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Put Your Whole Heart Forward
Is it possible to give too much? I say no, because I am a firm believer that one must give their all in every situation in life. This leaves room for no doubt to the possibilities that could have been. Life is way to short to not exhaust yourself of every last possible, what if in life.
With each old situation a new situation arises… meaning once you have solved one challenge in life another will come to you. I have figured out that life is all about challenges, or tests so to speak. If you are a recovering addict of an addiction to something, each day you will be tested as to whether or not you have the strength to overcome your addiction. If you are a person who is in an unhappy relationship, each day you will be challenged or tested on your faithfulness.
Life is funny like that, it seems to know when you are becoming weak and needs to toss in a little test so to speak just to keep you on your toes and remind you that you are not weak, that you are strong and that you are capable of moving on from the current weak state of mind you have. You see a weak state of mind is normal, even someone as strong as I am has those weak moments.
Yes, I admit it, I have times when I feel like I am not good enough, but the only difference between someone who has low self esteem and my “weak moment” is that I seriously only allow that thought to take up but a moment of my time and quickly redirect my brain back to the fact that I am completely awesome and know it!
I know that you all can do your best, put your whole heart into life and what you get back will be ten fold!! You are strong, you are awesome and YOU my friend CAN DO THIS!
I Wish I May, I Wish I Might
All too often I find myself wishing for a magic solution; for kids to sleep through the night, for me to be able to move back to my old house, for things to finally align in a way that I feel makes sense. The problem is, wishing upon a star may be fun but it doesn’t solve the issues at hand. You can wish with all your might for things to be different but without the actions to back up the wishful thinking you will be stuck sitting in your situation for a while.
I love to joke about magical fairy dust you sprinkle on the kids before sleep and it helps them have sweet dreams to sleep all night long. My four year old actually thinks this special sleeping fairy dust is cute, heck he even cracks a smile when I tell him with a whisper that I have sprinkled some sweet dreams, special sleepy fairy dust on him so he can magically fall asleep easier! Those are the moments I cherish; smiles, laughter, joyful times.
No matter how hard I wish to be out of the situation I find myself in, it will take hard work, motivation and determination. I recently read a blog post about how mother’s seem to have this motivation and dedication not easily understood nor a skill many men have {no offense men} but really if you think about your mother didn’t she seem to have super powers? I mean a Mom can get things done like no other.
I am happy that I am a mother, it has given me the strength and the courage to change my life for the better. Of course others have had worse mistakes in their past than I have, but still, I wasn’t the person I wanted to be before I became a mother. I am now this person, a person who believes positive thinking and sometimes a little wishing can help every challenge life tosses at you.
So today … just today … if you could have ONE WISH what would that wish be?
To Miss A Lifestyle
Sitting around wondering what it is that I feel I am missing, am I missing a person, a situation or what? Something is weighing on my heart and mind but I can’t quite put my finger on it. Sitting here wondering why some days I feel lost, lonely and anxious about my life.
It finally hit me one night while I was sitting around by myself watching a movie .. I am missing a lifestyle. The lifestyle I was used to living, a family … I wouldn’t go so far as to say a happy family but it was a semi-content family, living together as friends but nothing more than that. Some days the friendship seemed not worthy of my time, I felt like I was wasting my life and that persons life.
What could I possibly be missing? I have three wonderful children and a business as well as two blogs that keep my body busy and usually my mind as well. It seems those late nights sitting all alone is what gets my mind wandering. My mind wanders into the land of what ifs and questioning the actions I have taken in life. It is hard to not think thoughts of what ifs sometimes, but I hate admitting that.
I am content in my life, I am truly happy with the decisions that have been made to place myself in the situation I am in today, but I am a person who is hard on herself. It could be because so many do not understand my way of thinking or living. So many can not be the positive person I am and as much as I don’t want to let other peoples opinions bring me down … sometimes it does get to me.
So today I am reminded that I am not missing a person, I am missing a lifestyle, I am missing the life we are all brought up to be “right” but reality is … no other person can tell you what is right for you. All you can do is knock those what ifs out of your head, come to grip with today and remember that mistakes are meant to be learned by, not to keep reliving. Today I invite you to not allow those questions to consume your mind, remember that you made decisions for a valid reason, loneliness is hard but that does not mean you need another person to keep you from being lonely. If you open your mind and get creative you will soon find a way to occupy your mind with something more useful than thoughts of the past.
Keep moving forward …. I know I am.
The Story Continues … With Passion This Time
Sometimes you may wonder “what if” this moment happened in my previous relationship … would I have fallen back in love? I say no but one fictional woman did .. and here is the story:
He came home from a long day at work and dinner was warm, ready waiting for him on the table. The man wasn’t interested in the dinner laying on his plate, what the man was interested in was his hot woman with a smile on her face, apron on, ready to serve him. The man wanted his woman to serve him all right, to serve him with something a bit more steamy than what laid on that plate over on the kitchen table.
The woman wasn’t expecting what happened next, her man came up to her grabbed a hold of her and with his arms wrapped around her laid a big passionate kiss upon her lips. The woman squirmed a little, for she was shocked at how different her man was acting. Although a smile crossed her face, her heart was racing and her body tingling wondering what her man had in store for her next.
The man turned his woman around and led her to the bedroom where he continued to kiss her but this time on her neck, he kissed her slowly on her neck as her voice moaned from the sheer pleasure of his lips touching her skin. They fall upon the bed and start touching each other passionately, hands roaming, minds wandering and the excitement was so intense that they just had to have each other.
The man slowly worked off his woman’s clothes, they entwined their bodies and they enjoyed a long passionate night of love making. When the woman woke up the next morning she found a sweet love note beside the bed saying:
Thanks for the great night, I am off to work but today I will miss you and I can not wait to return home to kiss your sweet lips. Love always, your man
This was the day that love and passion was brought back into the house and that was the night that she fell in love with her man all over again.
Giving My All
One thing about me is that I am a very passionate person, this goes with life, love, parenting, and writing. Some people do not understand me, the passionate, positive, happy go lucky chick. Most wonder, can this person really be this happy ALL of the time?! I will answer you this … I am not always smiling and always happy, but it does take a lot to get me down.
I have found my strength and I have found my therapy. Growing up with a lot of anger and bitterness towards those I love created an angry young adult, one who occasionally had self destructive behavior without even realizing that is what she was doing until later in life. My family was not aware and probably still is not 100% aware of all I have been through.
I could sit here and share with you all of what I have been through and the mistakes I made along the way to becoming who I am today, but I feel they are not important stories to share. What is important is I am a firm believer that you can not live in the past, you can not hold yourself back … all you can do is smile, follow your heart, live life to the fullest and never look back!
Following your heart, never looking back and being a positive person takes a lot of practice, I always tell my friends it is in the mindset. You see, one can easily allow the negative in our world and our lives to take control, one can easily live a content life just for the sake of not hurting others, but life is what you make of it! Although it is hard to focus your mind on something more positive, I know you can do it, if I can go from being a negative, very angry person and such then I know you can work towards being a positive thinker!
So what are you waiting for? What is great about today? Leave a comment below!
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