For so many years I held this anger inside of me and had turned to drinking as an outlet to deal with the pain and unloved feeling I had as a teen. Even into my adult years I still held this anger and grudge for things that can not be undone, not only did I feel anger towards others, I felt it towards myself. Now that I have become who I am today, I still struggle with lost memories as well as this guarded feeling at times.
Sure I can remember a lot of pain I have gone through but I try to hold close the happy times and memories that I can bring to the forefront of my mind. It’s just difficult for me to remember what I had for dinner yesterday let alone what happened many years ago, but then I had a wonderful experience.
I was able to have some of my old home videos transferred over to DVD by YesVideo and the memories flooded. One Christmas with two daughters, a mother and a father. The father was recording a mom with her two daughters playing Connect Four. Do you know I never remembered playing board games with my mom, ever, and the funny thing is when I told her about this DVD she didn’t remember either. Maybe I should show her, thought about uploading it somewhere and sharing but not sure my pajama mom enjoys being on YouTube as much as I do!
So, remember, no matter what bad times you have been through and no matter what people have put you through or you have put them through, always remember you made mistakes too and once you become happy within your own self, you will be able to rebuild those relationships and make them blossom beyond control! I am thankful for memories forgotten but then remembered!
What are you thankful for?