So it begins, school is just around the corner and I find that my schedule is going to be cut tight again! No more day trips because I will have to be home in time for soccer practice, girl scouts or getting my oldest from school. As I work to get my middle child into preschool, well that is another commitment I have, to get him to and from preschool should we actually find him a good one. I love being a Mom, I love that my children are so involved with various activities and I love that I am supportive and right there to cheer them on in any event that they partake in!
The problem is that no matter how much you love your children and no matter how much you love that you can stay home and work from the privacy of a home office there comes a day when you simply say “Mama needs a break”. Seriously, how many days in a row can this Mama go with lack of sleep, lack of an appetite and feeling so plain exhausted that she falls asleep next to her four year old while singing him to sleep?! I mean that is not good, considering I work from home at night after my kids go to sleep, so if I pass out with AJ for an hour then I just lost an hour of work time I must make up on the back end. Another late night for Mama.
Working from home is awesome, starting a business one year and then finding it still going strong over a year later is even more awesome! The fact that you can wake up to your children and watch them grow before your eyes every day is priceless. Do not get me wrong, I cherish the life I live, I am lucky and I do enjoy every spaghetti wearing moment of it! At the same time, I do need a little break.
I keep telling Justin that I am totally going to take off one of these weekends he doesn’t work and just get away. I tell him we need to find someone to watch the boys overnight at our home or theirs so we can have one night of alone time to sleep in, to stay up late with no responsibilities, whatever it is we choose to do. To have one night a month without responsibilities for an overnight period would be amazing! Unfortunately there are few people who will babysit our sons and those people will or can not take them overnight for whatever reasons, the reasons are valid reasons!
It just sucks some days knowing that our family is simply us, Justin, me, the boys and Princess Ki. We are all we have and we are our own mini-support system, but reality is I wish there was a way to find a person who has kids of a similar age and we could switch weekends to take turns with sleep over babysitting. I am so a kid person, I would love to have a sleep over with a bunch of kids making beds in the living room watching cartoons on DVD all night long and sleeping in. Waking up to a mess of popcorn or chips everywhere in the house. I am that Mom, but when you are surrounded by children, specifically yours, all day and all night for so many years without sleep your body and mind scream for a day break or overnight break, something to help you focus and find that energy again.
I love my children dearly, they are the best little people in my world but it’s about time for some me time because Mama needs a break!